Dreams


Keep on Trekkin

As I did at the end of 2013 & 2014, so I do again here at the end of 2015 to recount some travel experiences, which I don’t normally write about here. I need not give the whole setup again for the premise of such entries and see my blog from the end of 2013: Travels of Spocklogic. The notables this year (travel blogs I finished or made additions to) include:

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That’s the summary for 2015. Some are carry overs from 2014, but I finished the blogs in 2015, after my last post on travels (see: Travels of Spocklogic II) in December 2014 or earlier if I made additions. As I alluded to in recent entries, I will take a break from this Cogito Ergo blog for a while in 2016. I’ve had 20 years of internet exposure and been blogging for 10 years (see: 20 Years of Internet and Mapping the Internet). I hope to return again with a fresh perspective down the line. There’s plenty to explore in the Cogito Ergo blog archives until then (see the link to: Browse Blog Posts). Best wishes for the New Year 2016! See you in the future…

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As I did at the end of 2013, so I do again here at the end of 2014 to recount some travel experiences, which I don’t normally write about here. I need not give the whole setup again for the premise of such entries and see my blog from the end of 2013: Travels of Spocklogic. The notables this year are a couple of blogs I finished and some reviews that may be of interest:

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spocklogic_Wroclaw-Poland_travel_blog.

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That summarizes some travel selections for 2014. I did travel to Italy also in July 2014, and have some links to share for photo collections I put together for a special year in Erice to celebrate a 40th anniversary of the International School of Atomic and Molecular Spectroscopy (ISAMS):

Rino: 40 Year Erice Celebrations (2014) – Erice, Italy
2014 Erice Workshop: 30 July – August 5 – Erice, Italy
People (2014) – Erice, Italy
Places (2014)
– Erice, Italy

In addition, I traveled to China again this year in November 2014, but am still working on my travel blog for that, so it will have to wait until my 2015 account of my travels. I will make this type of entry something traditional at years end to cover where I have been and what I have done in travel ways. It’s all rather like the City on the Edge of Forever perhaps…

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Loose-endsThe definition of ‘Loose Ends’ is given as: A part of something that has not been completed. In life we all have those things that are or were a part of us, but remain uncompleted. What satisfies understanding at least in the end of such things? In other words, what does it take to feel something is completed and there are no ‘Loose Ends’ left over? If it is a personal issue, I can say that all it takes is some communication. Silence can do a great deal of harm on its own over time, but a silence can be broken for making those ‘Loose Ends’ in life seem to fit together better. This is perhaps a thought of advancing years, when the days of youth are well behind, and there is a desire to feel centered, without the unresolved past to disturb that balance. The nature of a person is to guard the self – never mind the altruistic visions of love and giving yourself to another person. The women I have known in my life, without exception, chose self over love in the end. I don’t blame them – it’s a rational choice to believe in head over heart! This is, however, where ‘Loose Ends’ enter and caused by disparity between head and heart. It can be from a relationship, a job, a social occasion, and any other number of human interaction. My philosophical premise is that ‘Loose Ends’ come from head vs heart in human interaction.

We all have stores to tell, and I will tell some here:

1.) I knew a woman who did not want to leave her family and familiar surroundings to take a chance in life. We had a daughter together, and were divided to what was best. She chose her way and I chose mine. In time all the ‘Loose Ends’ were tied together because we communicated and had our daughter to take care of together, even though separate.

2.) I knew a woman who was in some conflict with her home life. I tried to get to know her, but pushed a bit too much maybe, and she pushed me away. That was lost long ago, but there was resolution to that ‘Loose End’  when she told me the whole story many years later. We communicated and brought our interactions to some understanding.

3.) I knew a woman who did not know whether she wanted to live or die, but took a chance on living. We were together for 10 years and I thought she loved me, but today I do not know if she ever did. I won’t speak on the details, but there were odd happenings at the end, and they were never explained to me. There was no communication to understand.

4.) I knew a woman who had issues with me, and was not afraid to speak of them. I appreciated this initially, but when it went on and on, one thing after another, I kept a distance always between us. We were together, but apart for 5 years. There was misunderstanding and pain in the end. We communicated a few years later and sought clarity with each other, to some success.

Well, 3 out of 4 ain’t bad, but I should say that #1 was a constant communication, as it involved our daughter. In regards to #2, it didn’t happen until some 20 years later, so better late than never rings true and I am glad for that. She contacted me to discuss it, and that was meaningful. We are friends now. For #3 I am totally baffled. I have not talked to her for 10 years, but reached out to her a couple years ago. There was no response, so with no communication there can never be understanding. In selfish ways, I always felt she owed me an explanation on the odd happenings,  and all I did or tried to do for her in love and devotion. Some people just are not capable of facing the past and prefer to live as if some part of their life never happened. I can not judge and only say there are ‘Loose Ends’ there because there was no communication then or 10 years later now. This brings me to #4, which I have already written extensively about in this blog. I appreciate she reached out to me and wanted to have closure and tie up those ‘Loose Ends’. I think she has anger issues and she thinks I may have Asperger  Syndrome, albeit a mild form, but we can agree to disagree or consider what is inside us that needs to be thought about.

My examples and explanation here all deal with my relationships with women. In my life I have much of what I want or desired, not through any random luck, some with perseverance and belief in my abilities. In the ways of love & relationships I am perhaps a failure and it is the focal point for my ‘Loose Ends’ to tie them up. I have done so for the most part and feel happy for that. One is missing (#3) and I guess I just wish I knew the odd happenings that led to the end. The last time I saw her,  I hardly recognized her, and that memory stays with me to this day. Sometime the ‘Loose Ends’ have very long threads indeed. As I said, I have 3 out of 4 and that should be enough, but I was hoping for 4 out of 4 to say:

But thanks
For your time
Then you can thank me for mine
And after that’s said
Forget it!
If there was a word
But Magic’s absurd
I’d make one dream come true
It didn’t work out
But don’t ever doubt
How I felt about you

It a total perspective, the ‘Loose Ends’ in life do affect us in time and over time, and with communication they can become threads in the tapestry of life to make a story of who we were, who we are, and who we want to be. I might maintain that some ‘Loose Ends’ may be good for us in the short term because they provoke thought, but in the long term, provoke a manifestly profound alteration of ones psyche. There is this quote usually attributed to Anain Nin, “We don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are.” Maybe that’s what ‘Loose Ends’ tell us, more about the way we are than the way things are..

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La Rose (Dream) – Salvador Dali

Dreams – they are the kind you can have when sleeping, but also the kind you have in life at looking to the future. It can be difficult to differentiate them sometimes as they spill over into each other, and I won’t limit the discussion here to one or the other, but favor the later. I always feel I have two lives, one lived in sleep and the other while awake, but they are intertwined in ways that make them mutually complimentary. On the whole, I think dreams are a good thing to have in life because they provide some positive outlook and a glimpse of the possible future ahead. They are, in essence, parts of ourselves yet undiscovered or unrealized. One of my favorite books in the bible is Ecclesiastes, as it is a philosophical chapter, and often invokes one to think a great deal about life. I also find it a source of great wisdom, religious aspects aside. Anyway, in there it says, “For the dream comes through much effort and the voice of a fool through many words” ~ (Ecclesiastes 5:3)

As most biblical verses, such things are generally about behavior towards God, but I see it also as reflection on achieving dreams. A dream does not come of itself usually, but requires effort to achieve. Simply speaking about it will not cause it to be, and is just the voice of a fool to think so. Just like in life, however, we don’t always get what we want or wish for, and dreams don’t always come true, or at least in the way we envisioned them. This is part of the reality of life. Oftentimes it may not be for lack of effort to achieve a dream, but a sequence of events that come together at the right time, sometimes even involving luck, that brings a dream to fruition. This is my feeling and it may be true that, “Dreams are the touchstones of our character.” ~ Henry David Thoreau, A Week on the Concord and Merrimack Rivers (1849).

Just some food for thought here. Of course, the solitary dream mostly reflects our inner self, but when dreams are shared they have the power to transmit a vision outwardly to others. I end with an inspiration from Friedensreich Hundertwasser, an Austrian artist of the 20th century:

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In the beginning there was an idea to share information and seeds of the internet were born sometime in the 1960’s. Segue to the early 1990’s and there is altavista & webcrawler for search engines, no advertisements and the start of the internet for everyone. There were modems that worked over the telephone line and squealed their functionality with signature precision. They were slow, but the internet didn’t need speed back then as it was mostly text based information. Then it all began to change: AOL, Friendster, Myspace, Facebook and the people didn’t really want information, they wanted to socialize. That was the real revolution of the internet.

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The Internet (c. 2007)

 

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The Internet (c. 2010)

 

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The Internet (c. 2013)

 

Interesting from a certain viewpoint (don’t think physicality in the construction similar to the continents, but where you are and where you go to online based on the map designations). In this sense, it’s another travel dimension of sorts! It’s rather like the the maps you see in the Age of Discovery in the centuries past when men explored the world in sailing ships. The maps were crude at first but became more refined over time. There is a perspective here to be appreciated and that is the following: All things human begin from the fundamental to the advanced – that is how our species learns and understands. We seem to be better at this in some ways, especially technology, but not so good in other ways, especially getting along with each other.

A final comment: The internet is capable of breaking down barriers like class, religion and wealth and everyone can participate (in principle). The reality is that the human species does not use the brain it has developed and the instances of this are too numerous to mention in the thousands of years of civilization. Although Carl Sagan did not live to see the full potential of the internet age, I like what he had to say about humanity in general – The Frontier Is Everywhere:

We were hunters and foragers. The frontier was everywhere. We were bounded only by the earth, and the ocean, and the sky. The open road still softly calls. Our little terraqueous globe as the madhouse of those hundred thousand millions of worlds. We, who cannot even put our own planetary home in order, riven with rivalries and hatreds; are we to venture into space?

By the time we are ready to settle even the nearest other planetary systems, we will have changed. The simple passage of so many generations will have changed us; necessity will have changed us. We are… an adaptable species. It will not be we who reach Alpha Centauri and the other nearby stars. It will be a species very like us, but with more of our strengths, and fewer of our weaknesses; more confident, farseeing, capable and prudent.

For all our failings, despite our limitations and fallibilities, we humans are capable of greatness. What new wonders undreamt of in our time, will we have wrought in another generation, and another? How far will our nomadic species have wandered, by the end of the next century, and the next millennium?

Our remote descendants, safely arrayed on many worlds through the solar system, and beyond, will be unified, by their common heritage, by their regard for their home planet, and by the knowledge that, whatever other life may be, the only humans in all the universe, come from Earth. They will gaze up and strain to find the blue dot in their skies. They will marvel at how vulnerable the repository of all our potential once was, how perilous our infancy, how humble our beginnings, how many rivers we had to cross, before we found our way.

References:
The internet 2007 – http://xkcd.com/256/
The Internet 2010 – http://xkcd.com/802/
The Internet 2013 – http://jaysimons.deviantart.com/art/Map-of-the-Internet-1-0-427143215
Carl Sagan – The Pale Blue Dot

 

 

Elvis spoke to me in a dream and said I should pay attention to “Suspicious Minds”. So, I got into that mode of thought and began to wonder on something I saw the other day before I had this dream. It was a photo of the unpacking of the head of the statue of Liberty in the late 1800’s, around 1885 -1886. You know, it kind of looks like Elvis. Maybe more than kind of looks like him, and it looks just like him when he was young! That’s freaky, I thought, but maybe just a coincidence. So, I began searching for more photos of the Statue of Liberty and found another one from 1885-1886 that looked like the old and fat Elvis. That can’t be, I thought. It was the same statue, but maybe I was seeing Elvis just because he came to me in a dream. Then I got to thinking how the Statue of Liberty does appear different depending on how you look at it. Before I go further, here are the comparisons I found between Elvis and Lady Liberty:

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Elvis (1958) & Liberty (1885 -1886)

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Elvis (1977) & Liberty (1885 -1886)

I don’t know what it all could possibly mean. How can Elvis and the statue of Liberty have the same face? It defies reason and is not logical. Yet there it is plain as day.  Could all these faces have something to do with the face on Mars maybe? The resemblance is hard to make out here due to the quality of the image, and the US government and NASA have tried to hide this from the public for many years. I show the best quality available for the face on Mars here too and you decide! Maybe the crew of the Enterprise (TOS – The Original Series) needs to do one of those ring around the sun things that Scotty was against, but Spock said was theoretically possible, and go back in time to figure this out.

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Face on Mars

Elvis also told me to reset the initial conditions each day because, he said, parameters propagate out of control all the time. He didn’t sing to me, but made Karate moves in his appeal as he spoke. He told me my cats understood this already and could easily explain it to me if only I understood them. I didn’t really know what he meant by that. Aren’t people more intelligent than cats? I think Elvis was saying my cats reset their clocks everyday, but humans don’t. I did question my cats about this, but they didn’t seem to know anything and behaved as they always do. It’s funny though, and I never gave much attention to it before, but when there are stories of UFO’s, Bigfoot, Nessie and such things on TV, I catch my cats paying attention. When I look at them they turn away suddenly, even suspiciously. So many times I have questioned them intensely, and just as I think they are going to speak – I wake up!

The only fragments left are of a Conspiracy Theory Dream. Elvis has left the house, and I can recall some fragment of lyrics related to a ‘real’ song:

‘We can’t go on together with suspicious minds,
and we can’t build our dreams on suspicious minds.’

Meanwhile, my cats remain as they were before,  but I remember the words of Elvis, to reset the initial conditions each day. Nevertheless, I then try to recreate the dream here!  It is the nature of human beings to analyze and always question what is a dream and what is reality. It’s a thin line between what we know, what we dream, and what we perceive in the universe. As Shakespeare said: “The Play’s the Thing, wherein I’ll catch the conscience of the King.”

Shakespeare and the “King” – Elvis is back in the house and so begins another Conspiracy Theory Dream. I’m caught in a trap, and I can’t walk out! Am I awake or do I dream?